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Who ever knew San Francisco was such an amazing city. I'm hooked on it, already, after only going there once--no, twice. We did go to get our kilts, didn't we? I took the train last Friday to the bay and stayed overnight in a cheap hotel. The city rocks. So much life, diversity. You can feel the vibe running like a current through the streets. Everybody was just doing their thing, and I was doing mine. I kept mostly by the wharf, had a chowder bread bowl, then fish and chips, then a Guiness at Hooters. The ladies there are lovely. None of them had very many clothes on. Funny, I thought later.
Of course, it is expensive. That's why I don't see myself moving there--but I do want to move there. I don't know when. Sometime. I just have to have enough to live on. Nothing's been thought through. I only feel this driving desire, like a yearning impulse, to take myself north and through the golden gates, to be a part of the excitement. It is really exciting. And what I like most is that you don't need a car. I could walk, take a street car, or the subway system BART. Then, to immerse myself in the history of late hippie movement, stroll to Haight-Ashbury and let my mind reach out to the past, and embrace all that free-loving ideas. My art would flourish.
I must have missed you when you were in Ojai. Our trip was actually a week later than I thought. And then the San Francisco thing. Maybe soon I can plan a train ride up there. It's nice just getting away. A one or two day vacation to catch up with some good friends. Yes, I think so! I see you're still working on Spearit's book. You're about where I was with my previous book. I got so jaded with the whole experience I only wanted to be done. Since I knew it could be years more to finish, I decided to scrap the entire thing and started fresh with a new project. It's exhausting, isn't it? It's lost its fun. Well, be glad when you're done. Don't let it tax you too hard. And I do definitely want to read it when you're finished.
Cj, Gina, my friend Casey, take care, drink rum, be merry.
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I hope showing up like this out of nowhere stirs no bad sentiments. I posted something a month or two ago, promising I'd be back soon. But that was when I was still involved with my book. I've finally finished writing it, and now it's published. Of course I didn't mean to be gone so long. I really like staying updated with you guys. I believe you're my closest friends. It's true. No, we don't talk regularly--we haven't for months. But you are most LIKE me out of all my friends, with similar ambitions, views on religion, and what not. I've felt the absence of you guys always in the back of my mind, wondering "How's CJ doing? What's Gina heard from the schools she's applied to? What about Casey? How's she where she is?" You two have your own place now, and that's great. I'd like to know more about it. I'm still in Oak View, living with my parents, sweating and toiling at TJ's. You have nice, comfortable jobs. Intellectual work. That's what I want. And that's why I've been pushing so hard to finish my book, so eventually I could leave my job at TJ's and live like an author. I know it won't happen overnight. I am really hopeful, though, that it will happen for me, as long as I stay committed to my work. I've let the solid relationship I had with you guys slip over this long silent period. I just hope you realize it wasn't you. It was a phase I was in and now I'm out of it, ready to tighten those loose bonds. All right? Sorry for all the sentimental fluff. I hope you're doing well. I'll talk to you soon, probably tomorrow 'cuz, hey, I've got no work to do; I'm done! Let me know how you're doing? Talk to you later. |
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Jan. 25th, 2009 @ 11:49 am
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Hello out there. CJ? Gina? You two found a place? I read that you were still moving in and arranging things, setting up the router, etc.--the normal business. That's great! I hadn't heard until now. Where is it, in Santa Cruz? I hope your life is affordable and not too stressful. You have rent now, and car payments, bills, but of course you know this all too well. This may warrant a trip. Yes, I think definitely. It wouldn't be anytime soon. I'm sure you're busy with the move still, and work, and everything else, so you'll need time for settling into your new life. I'm busy too. I just finished writing my book. It's 25 chapters with a prologue, about 300 pages in book form. Now I have to edit it. That should only be a month or six weeks, something like that. Then I'll publish it through LULU. I didn't know what a strain it would have on my social life, writing a book. The majority of it, however, I admit was self-imposed. I denied company and sought company with my laptop instead. I was very productive; but, for the future, I need to establish a better method for writing during the week. Oh, well...things we learn.
I couldn't gather much from the entries. Life is hectic for you as usual. Casey, I hope your enjoying school, though I think you've already determined to despise it, if I remember correctly. Everything, let's make a pledge to good cheer and laughter. I'll talk to you soon. Ummm...I promise. |
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Nov. 3rd, 2008 @ 03:29 pm
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I'm back home with the parents. It was one of the greatest joys, perhaps in my entire life, driving away from my apartment with a car packed full of all my belongings. I'm only working at TJ's three days a week now--friday through sunday--and writing the rest. Today was my first day at it. It was immensely satisfying. My happiness will climb higher and higher and peak once I've written the final lines, and then escape all known boundaries if I can get it published. I will run the streets declaring my love for everyone, hug the mail lady, blow kisses to the sky, the sun, and clouds, and overwhelm customers who come through my register at work.
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Sep. 15th, 2008 @ 04:02 pm
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i've decided there'll be no moving up north for me. i'm still moving back home; then i'll reduce my hours at work and really push to finish my book. i realized i do want a change of environment, but most of all i want a relief from my heavy work schedule. working five days a week just wears me down, and leaves me too little time to write. it would have been fun living up there with you guys. i also would have had to work just as much, if not more, than i do now, and that part of it wouldn't have been fun.
wow, i'm suddenly very sleepy. let me just close my eyes for a second and...just a minute really...just a...just a |
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i wish i could have been there with you in tahiti. of course, i would have gone my separate way once the plane landed down, left you two alone, and had my own fantastic experiences through the week. the vistas there are incredible--and i've only the photos to judge from. courtney, i added you as a friend. if you are out there listening, know that i think very highly of you and wish you only the best. women like you, and gina, are rare gems. cj is lucky man, and gina a lucky woman. your lives will flourish together.
my heart has a yearning to find a place to settle in up north. i have friends here. toby is still my best friend. but sometimes man must uproot himself and ease down into new ground, where he may attain the lofty heights of personal growth. money is the only scarcity preventing my immediate escape from this tiring monotony.
i've had a margarita, followed by (some kind of) juice mixed with vodka, so excuse me if i sound a little irregular right now.
you are my intellectual friends. i greatly value your company, because i get to exercise intellectual thought that is sometimes lost on my familiar crowd. to have bordering one's drive trees instead of buildings--deep green and extending on and on in overlapping layers--a climate cool and comforting, a pervasive attitude of harmony within one's existence...this is what attracts me to Santa Cruz. i would advance dramatically as a writer, i think, if placed in an environment accomodating to my heart's sensibilities.
ah, but i am going nowhere with this. i'll stop now, and leave you to your lives, which surely will offer more for your entertainment than my unabashed ramblings.
Sep. 1st, 2008 @ 04:37 pm
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i got my measurement taken. i wasn't sure if i should give them to you here, as it is kind of a personal thing to put on display, but thinking probably so, here they are:
chest: 42
waist: 34
overarm: 50
hips: 42
coat sleeve inseam: 20.5
outseam: 43
coat size: 42 L
shirt size: 17.5(neck) 36/37(sleeve)
shoe size: 13
and, i think i remembered correctly; i got the length from above my belly button to the ground (48), and then the circumference of my stomach, also above my belly button (34).
all right, that should take care of it. let me know if there is anything else i need to do.
Jul. 11th, 2008 @ 03:19 pm
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it's been a while since my last post. nothing has changed really. i've been writing more than before, though my book doesn't seem to be any closer to completion. the ladies come and go. maybe if i put a little more effort into it they would stay around longer--not that i'm complaining; i'm content with the life i lead, or maybe i've just grown complacent, and that should never happen. all this self-analysis is tiresome...
cj, i need to know which days exactly i should request off from work. and should i be actively doing something right now toward getting my wedding attire? i need to get my measurements taken, don't i? i'll get on top of that.
all right, i'm going to cut this one short, and head over to catch up on your and gina's posts. later, friends.
Jul. 3rd, 2008 @ 06:01 pm
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hello, all. i've been well. i just finished editing the introductory chapters of my book, and am now ready to send off the proposal to an agent. i have one in mind, a linda blasdell, who specializes in fantasy and also used to work for harper collins, the company i want to publish through. it's the perfect marriage.
i've met a really special girl, i think. she's everything i've been searchig for. let's hope fortune runs my way. let's see...what else. well, there's not much else, just work really, a few outings here and there, art, music.
looking forward to the wedding.
Apr. 14th, 2008 @ 04:17 pm
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happy new year. 2008 should be good to me. i will finish my book this year; i will find a girlfriend this year; i will be that person i aspired to be these past few years, whom i couldn't be because of circumstances, because i simply was not ready yet. now i am at last able to embrace a grander image of myself. but this is all large talk...what about the smaller things?
i'm excited for the trip up to santa cruz. i think this time i'll drive, so i may experience the open road as rolling stones have done before me, music on, windows fully down, breathing in the pleasant country air. courtney will be there from the 13th through the 17th? i'll just be missing her, then. that's okay. she's cool. but that's okay.
well, we will talk soon. hope everything's going well.
Jan. 1st, 2008 @ 07:10 pm
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if all goes as planned, sometime in january i'll be moving into a house in mid-town ventura. it will be this guy from work, his friend, and i. they both play instruments, i've picked up the guitar again and begun singing, and together we will be a band.
the book's going very well. i'm not sure, though, if i should try to get an advance or just finish my book and then start the search.
cj, do you have any dates you can give me yet? i need to know soon so i can request that time off.
damn, i have to run. i'll post in a few.
Dec. 6th, 2007 @ 02:54 pm
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it's been far, far too long. you probably thought i'd disappeared. no, it was just one of my usual absences, so deeply had i plunged into working and writing. i don't think i can get time off work in december. we're going to be swamped, and they simply wouldn't have it. but january! i'm thinking sometime in january, if that works for you. cj...i was reading your journal entries...i feel so out of touch, like we haven't spoken in ages.
well, here's an update.
two more chapters and i'm halfway through my book. when i am halfway through, i'll do a quick edit and then start sending it off to publishers, in the hope of getting commissioned to write the rest.
i got an electric guitar that i've been fooling around with. i'm no jimi hendrix, that's for sure. but i have fun with it.
...women.
there are no women. i just haven't the time right now. i think that will always be an issue for me.
yes, this is a pitiful entry, but unfortunately i have to be going. why i leave myself just a few minutes in which to post, i don't know. i'll try to post again soon, i really will.
Nov. 4th, 2007 @ 01:13 pm
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